Doctorstrange, 38

I dont know, to hell with this site I dont think it really matters what I say here. These sights never help. Its all about looks, never about what one has in his or her profile anymore. I could be your perfect match, and yet, you would not message me if you didnt find me attractive enough. Thats how things are today. I have tried the online dating thing before, just because I figured maybe it would be different, that I would find women that I can connect with on a deeper level. But having tried this sorta thing for a while. Thats just not true anywhere you go. There are good guys out there, but none of you are interested in them. You only say you are, but you never really look. We are all around you. I really dont need your love or affection. If you really cared and wanted to know me, you would read my words, here and in my blog, youd get to know me and try to understand me. Youd actually message me, or reply. I dont send messages freely. I only message those I know I have some things in common with. But its funny, it never comes down to that. One of my favorite video games had a line it. "I dont believe in love. What love is today is only a combination of ---- and Attachement." I always hated the thought of that being true. But I have never had proof that its wrong either. Im sorry, but I am tired of all this. I am tired of trying to convince myself that there are good women here in the states. Tired of telling myself that one day it will happen. But I am older with each new day, and I want love while I am young. For I never know when I will be dead. It would have been nice to have a true love in my life. But all its about these days is ---- and Money. I will rarely be on here anymore. So if your lucky enough to recieve a message from me, perhaps you should reply. If not, nothing you can do that will make me feel worse. I have heard it all. That I am pathetic and wrong. But in truth, perhaps you are wrong, and my words have hit a sensitive nerve. Goodbye.