Maniackjack, 38

Doubting Thomas an essay~

When I started off on this new journey of life called my 20's I had no idea what to expect, I was starting over all over again having to work and pay bills the new found responsibleness of a life leading to new found wonder, a freak out in a world that was looking for a return to "normalcy" in a supposed time of terror when all I can see is apathy.

Some where inbetween: Discover Heavy Metal and all its glories, play Dungeons & Dragons like its your job, party your --- off, make amazing friends, go to amazing concerts, eat delicious food, and learn to cook it, write crazy wicked poetry and music, try crazy mind and mood altering substances and know when to stop. Return to Wicca, the Moon and Goddess Diana. Face my inner demons and continue to fight, my mind is my own but some times goes on separate vacations. Go on crazy adventures with The Doctor visit other planets and time, discover new life in my imagination, have a trying but wonderful life full of spectacular new yet to be unveiled secrets, sing like no one can hear at all, scream at the wind, swim thru the waters and run thru the woods. Speak not unnecessarily choose your words save the endless blathering to the mindless masses. Live for the moment embrace every feeling the good and the bad observe life in all its glory!

College: drunken parties leading to a slowing of progress toward future goals. The torrid affair worshiping the goddess failing to see the woman underneath my heart is torn asunder. Life hits me smack in the face get a job a place to live, find roommates no time to slow down hurt yourself at work twice s---! go back to work too soon aggravate injures. begin recovery relax....... Life Hits you in the face again s--- go live with cousin apply for school.................... Get into school move out of cousins............That brings us to now right now, the very scary now we'll need a plan ( or at least tell them you have one and fly by the seat of your pants